I'm going to keep this short for all of us. As many of you know, I've been in turmoil when it comes to art. I've decided the best thing I can do about that is to take a break from art. Although, I might also take a long break from DA as well. I'm sorry guys, but I think most of you can understand why. I think DA here is a great place for artists despite what most people say. DA is one of the biggest (if not THE biggest) art sites for a reason. Sadly being big means a bigger population of trolls. But it's not the trolls that are making me take this break. I've just felt pressured to draw what's popular, and I'm not just talking about things like swords, sonic, kingdom hearts, krystal or anything like that. I'm talking about techniques too. From manga, to color, I feel pressured to produce the best, colorful, pieces I can with captivating characters. You won't find any realism, or plain scenery in my gallery, and the black and white sketches in my scraps will never be hailed as anyone's favorite piece over the other things I do.

Up until now I thought that's just what *I* wanted to draw, but now I'm not so sure. I find myself scoffing at anime, my focus tends to lock onto more detailed fantasy work with close to real anatomy.

It's time I spread my wings and fly, and to fly alone. I don't need a posse of over supporters, or critics. I need to take a journey into art, and maybe into myself. For all I know, I might really love abstract art and become famous for that. But I need to break free to check out all the side roads.

I myself am scared, because the one style you see me have is the ONLY style I have. I can't do anatomy, and I don't know how I'd fit it in. I might submit what I draw, but chances are you WON'T like it. Even now I have some sheets of still life sketches of mundane cups and such. I don't know what will happen to Jetyra's story, or the looks of the style I use to draw her...

But hey, I'm getting all deep and serious now (something I fail at) so let's lighten it up a bit! I WILL be submitting pictures of the cards I make. I might make quite a few, since at the moment I'm taking somehting of an "art break" (though I'm still drawing a bit, but it's purposely stuff that's not of my usual taste, thus hard to stress over). I know most of you need your anime-furry-digital-neon art, but you'll have to go to someone else for it now.

If you want to know about my life more here on out, you can check out my LiveJournal blog, although it might contain swears, depression and all sorts of things you never wanted to know about me: [link]

What do you do when you dropped out of highschool and end up pursuing art for 5 years, only to have furries and otaku(s) kill any and all love you had for drawing to the point you stab yourself with the pencil and swear and throw things and insult everyone when you have to sitdown and draw? What do you do when the 6 year old story you were going to write just died utterly? What do you do when you have no other skills, and a major surgery in 2 months that will prevent you from doing anything for 6 months?

You know what? To hell with this act I've been putting on. So I've made cards that are now in the hands of friends of family and family? So what if a few of them make it to this site. I doubt any of them have accounts, and I just can't keep myself bottled up and act like some perfect, always balanced person. I'm 18, I'm not 58, life isn't perfect, I'm still full of angst and hormones.

I mean REALLY! Why should I even bother smiling and acting like I'm some professional? I'm NOT, and everyone knows it. I'd get laughed at as a joke if I brought my works to any college. I know about as much about art as I do about the types of mushrooms and fungi out there (which is to say, NOTHING.) Any talented 20+ something year old would just pat my head and tell me to keep drawing. I'm nothing special, and I'm not gifted.

It's not even like anyone visits this page anymore. What... maybe 2-3 of you? 4 in a blue moon? 5 and it's a crowded party?

I don't even know why I maintain this account anymore... or ANY of my art accounts. No one checks it. And why maintain something if no one visits it? Why hand out links to this website? It's pointless, this isn't a place to put in orders for cards or jewelry or art, it's just my crappy crafts and art submitted.

Eh, but whatever. I don't even know why I draw anymore either. But I just do. We all know that a month or so from now I'll be the happiest thing on earth with a purpose and all that crap. I hate this cycle. We all do, that's why I'm the only one left here.

I look at my galleries (Featured, Browse and Scrapbook) and all I see is crap. Just a modge podge of cards, chainmail, bionicle crud and bad sketches next to a few gems... I'm sure most of you will agree with me

Still, I don't want to delete anything, and I don't want to make a new account. So if any of you have any suggestions for cleaning up my galleries, let me know.

This might be a meme floating around, but I'm doing it anyways.

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